Early beginnings can be about anything, you can be getting a head start on an exam, you can be getting ready to begin a new chapter in your life a few months before the page turns and that chapter begins, but in my case, I’m having early beginnings before the famous New Year panic.
When January 1st hits, we all start going into panic stations because for some reasons the new year is when we all want to turn over a new leaf, as if last year never happened. Whilst this can be a good thing, I think every year is an important learning curve, and if we’re so willing on January 1st to turn over a new leaf, why can’t we do it whenever we feel? Getting an early start and turning your life around or making a change doesn’t have to just begin because it’s a new year. You can do it whenever. So, it’s November and the changes I want to make, the things I want to do, I’ve decided to just do them.
For the longest time I lived on the mental image that in order to do something, you need a friend to do it with or you just need someone to do it with. Doing things solo is sad and people will feel sorry for you because you’re on your own enjoying your own company. This is a whole load of garbage, and who says you can’t be enjoying yourself because you’re on your own?
So, this is what I’m changing. The fear of doing something on my own because of how other people think and to also stop caring about what other peoples opinions are. I have no problem going shopping by myself, I have no problem with going to my piano lessons on my own, so why is it when I want to do something slightly more ~out there~ I decide I can’t do it, because what if a friend isn’t available? Or because my friends aren’t into that type of thing, which tends to be the case more often than not.
I know what I like, and I know the things I want to do. Because of this new mentality though, I’ve found it easier to not only decide to do things on my lonesome, but it’s also changed my opinions on caring about what other people think of me. I buy clothes that I used to stray from, because I like them (mustard has been a theme this year), and I’ve been blogging more openly, because who cares if someone from who I went to school with stumbles across this blog and has a read? I’m expressing myself and that’s what is important to me.
I also think that the key to my happiness is to just be me. I had a hard time discovering myself as a teenager, I leeched on what my friends, boyfriends and sisters were into because I couldn’t discover myself on my own. As an adult, I’ve found this less challenging, but after making the decision to stop caring I’ve found it even more easier.
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I tend to talk about making changes to my mentality a lot on here though, and I’ve noticed it’s become a theme for me to talk about wanting to change the negative traits I have, and I think that this relates quite a bit to the overall formula that I’ve been using in my lifestyle lately, and I think it connects to me wanting to get a head start and not rely on a date to begin making changes. I’ve been recognising the wrong in myself, and I’ve been quite keen to change it.
A lot of the negative in me though, is how I care about what people think. I talk about how I do things without a care in the world a lot, but this is only a recent thing. 12 months ago, I cared too much about what people thought. I’ve been subconsciously self censoring on my social media and on my blog, because I worried about the possibility of somebody I know or somebody I knew in person finding my profiles and my website and reading what it is I have to say. I have no shame. I stand by my opinions, and whilst I disagree with what I said at 14, 15 and 16 quite a bit on my social media (why I thought swearing in every tweet was cool IDK), what I say now, what I’ve said a few months ago, they’re my opinions being shared on my side of the internet. Why wait until January 1st to start being my usual overly opinionated self and expressing my thoughts? Why can’t I just start now?
However, to completely contradict every point I’ve made in this post. I don’t see anything wrong with having a New Year’s resolution, I actually think that this can be a positive thing, creating an oath with yourself that you want to carry with you for 12 months can do you a lot of good, but it’s the sticking to it, and the remembering to carry the self-made promise for 12 months. This year, when it was January 1st, I even wrote a blog post talking about resolutions and resolutions (or objectives), that I have made with myself.
How many of those did I manage to even complete? Well funnily enough, nearly all of them were crossed off my list, or are about to be. When I wrote that blog post, I kept the objectives easy and achievable, but I actually forgot all about it. Before I wrote this post, I went back and read it to make sure that I wasn’t being a parrot and repeating my words from nearly a year ago, and I was pleasantly surprised that every goal I set myself had been completed in one way or another.
So, who cares that I’m two months ahead of myself. I want to make the changes in my life, and the changes to my negative personality traits without having to wait for the beginning of the new year.
So, tell me, what do you think about making New Year’s resolutions, and what do you think about making your new beginnings and changes to your life a little bit early on, just like I have decided to do?